Fellow ENTJ here who has been struggling with a bout of depression. For the past few months, my normally sharp mind has felt in a fog that I can’t break, and I feel like a shadow of myself. Occassionally, I have moments of clarity where everything seems fine, but I haven’t been able to identify when these occur.
Although I’ve never been a sound sleeper, the frequency with which I have had night terrors and insomnia has increased–and not sleeping well adds to my other depressive symptoms. I cry every morning, and in the evenings–and for no reason (as trite as that sounds). I’ve found myself withdrawing from social activities with my friends. I feel fatigued all day. I get overwhelmed by small things, such as cleaning or doing errands. I take an “all or nothing” approach, which has more often than not resulted in nothing. Mentally, I get preoccupied with the negative thoughts I think my friends and even strangers are having about me. I’ve also had a difficult time thinking long term and haven’t maintained things that have always been important to me–fitness, career planning, etc.
I know that filling my free time with productive activities to supplement my job will help reduce my other feelings, but it has been difficult to even get out of bed in the morning, much less seek out new commitments.
Before seeking a professional, I want to help myself if I can. If there is anyone who can relate to the feelings I am experiencing and has insight to provide, I’d be hugely appreciative.
All the best,
As an aside–I’m in my mid-twenties and graduated from law school in the past year. I’m normally a high achiever who is engaged in many activities. I am in a committed and loving relationship, and have not experienced any major life changes in the past year aside from graduating school and beginning to work full-time. My present job is very solitary in nature and involves mostly researching and writing, and although I think the social isolation from my job is attributing to my feelings, I don’t believe it is solely responsible.